procrastinating on tumblr
can you please-
are you serious do you even know how much homework i have im stressing over so much please don't make me do it i really need to get this homework done im so tired
lesbian and bi women should have a secret code word that we slip into conversation with girls we’ve just met to see if they also like girls
tegan and sara
I’m pretty sure this really is it tho and I’ve been unknowingly using it for months. Now that I’m out to some people a few of them have said they had a feeling I might be and every time it’s bc of tegan and sara.. it’s fucking hilarious
do you know how difficult it is to feel secure in your looks and personality and overall self when absolutely no one has ever shown any interest in you whatsoever like yeah you shouldn’t base all of your self-confidence on other people but still there’s like always that irritating little voice inside of you that tells you that you’ve never been worth a second glance or getting to know for anyone and you can try to ignore it all you want but it’s still there
These are my favorite gifs of Tegan of all time I hate them so much
sometimes I feel guilty for skipping songs on my phone like I’m sorry song I love you I’m just not in the mood for you I’ll come back later though
I officially got a girlfriend today..
By far my favorite couple I have ever gotten the privilege of photographing. Cant wait to see these two blossom.
This is absolutely beautiful. Great photos!
Maybe I do hope for this one day.
This! Is! Incredible!
I KISSED A GIRL AND I LIKED IT
Her tattoos are amazing
Two weekends ago I went to Virginia Beach with my brother’s fiancee and 3 other girls for her Bachelorette party and it was probably the greatest weekend I’ve ever had.
(This is really long so there’s a very short tl;dr at the bottom.)
The 5 girls on the trip were me, my brother’s fiancee - C, her sister - K, and her two friends (who are sisters) - M and B.
I had spent very little time with any of the other 3 girls prior to going on this trip so I was nervous because I’m a very awkward person and the very first part of the trip was me, M, and B being stuck in the back of a van for a 10 hour drive.
Overall the drive went well.. traffic and weather weren’t great but as far as the time with the girls, it was good. We talked a bit, B is very outgoing so she was good at making conversation flow. There was obviously lots of time spent not talking, we were half asleep since we left so early and we listened to the radio the whole time but the silence never felt overly awkward.
When we finally got there we spent the evening at the beach but it was supposed to rain that night so it was actually pretty chilly out. We ended up going back to the room and just ordering food to eat there and hung out all night. I was thrown into the friendship with M and B because we had so much time together in the back of the van and while C and K were handling stuff like checking in and driving to get the pizza.
I ended up sleeping in the same bed as M because, although B is her sister, B decided that she sleeps too wildly and would be fine sleeping on the air mattress that we brought. K and C slept in a bed because they are sisters so it just made sense that way.
The thing about M is that, although I had spent very little time with her before this trip, from what I had seen of her I totally thought she might be a lesbian. There were just too many things pointing to her being one but since I wasn’t just going to assume she was I just acted normal and tried to be cool and become friends with her.
The next morning C, K, and B all got up really early to go to the beach but me and M are not morning people so we stayed in bed a little longer. Eventually I got up and got ready and then waited for her to get up and ready so we could walk down together. We met up with the others and spent a while at the beach, going in the water and just laying out. It was just a nice relaxing time and also a lot of fun because we were all together and just joking around all day.
At some point during the beginning of the trip I guess I had told them that I had only been drunk once and that it was only less than a year ago because it became B’s goal to get me drunk, apparently she thought it would be really funny. So our second night there we decided to actually really start drinking.
C made me a vodka + cranberry juice (with some help from M) and I hated the taste so I just drank it as fast as possible. Then we went and found a Sprite because I hoped that I’d like that taste better. So we got back and C made me something with the Sprite and I still didn’t like it but again drank it fairly fast just to get it over with.
Then somehow the conversation got around to some random people that they were telling me about. And then this one kid who is friends with C, M, and B and I asked if he and M had ever dated and B said, “No my sister likes pussy.” lol.. B is a very random person but the way she just says stuff like that is hilarious.
So I immediately got really excited because I obviously thought she was gay but wasn’t going to say anything unless I knew she was. The conversation just kept going and somehow B started asking questions about me and basically they found out that, not only was I a virgin, but I had also never even had a first kiss before. They were all a bit shocked and somehow that led to me talking about how I don’t really think I like boys because they are just gross and shit and B kept asking questions and I ended up saying something like, “I guess I’m gay.”
They were all cool about it, and although I don’t remember exactly what anyone said I do know that I didn’t really regret telling them, unlike how I felt when I told my parents. I actually ended up finding out that M already had a feeling that I was gay.. she attributed that to her good gaydar and she never really said a specific thing that made her think I was, which is alright, but also really confusing because I don’t think anyone would guess that I was - but I have to admit I was probably trying a little harder than normal to act cool around her in the beginning haha
So we ended up going to the beach while we were drunk and just running around and falling over and it was really fun and funny. I was the most drunk so M was helping me out a bit along the way and I had to go to the bathroom so we all decided to go back up to the room.
It had gotten late by that time so we all went to bed fairly quickly. M and I got in bed and while we were laying there our knees touched and neither of us moved them. Then as each of us kept readjusting we continued to make sure our legs were still touching. Then suddenly I felt her tug on the sheet so I turned to her and she asked me if I wanted to go for a walk, so of course I said yes.
We left the room as quiet as possible, she grabbed my hand when we got in the hallway, and we walked down to the parking lot and sat on a curb right next to each other. We started talking and flirting and although we both knew what we wanted we were both too awkward/shy/stubborn/scared to be the first one to say it. She kept asking me questions and I kept giving hints and basically saying everything except the exact thing that was on my mind and she did the same to me.
We were out there for a long time and had actually started laughing at ourselves because we knew we were both being extremely silly about the whole thing and then finally we just turned to each other and kissed.
The kiss didn’t last extremely long and then I stopped and turned away because my head was all over the place I didn’t even know what to think - it was my first kiss, it was a girl, it was someone I hadn’t even really known for that long - I just needed a moment.
So we kept talking and she was saying how it’s okay to freak out a little bit and she even said that she was freaking out knowing that she was my first kiss but I told her that I wasn’t mad about it so she felt better about that. Then we started saying other random stuff about how sometimes when you want to do something you just need to say “fuck it” and go for it, so I said “fuck it” and went in for another kiss.
I was shaking so much the entire time we were out there so I eventually stopped the kiss again and I was cold and tired and drunk so we decided to go back up to the room. We got back in bed and this time she actually laid really close to me and we ended up cuddling most of the night.. it was great, except I barely slept at all.
So in the morning C, K and B all got up fairly early again to go to the beach but M and I were still really tired and I was very hungover so we stayed in bed and were going to meet up with them later. Unfortunately for the others, we never really felt like getting out of bed so we never went and found them. I felt bad about that but I also had sunburn so there really wasn’t anything making me want to go outside, especially since staying inside meant staying in bed with M all day.
We actually ended up cuddling in bed a lot that day and making out some more but I wasn’t sure if I wanted the others to see us cuddling because they still didn’t know that anything had happened between us. But eventually they got back and I just decided “fuck it” and didn’t move. We pretended to be asleep and could hear them laughing a little bit and whispering but I talked to them later and found out that they didn’t say anything bad, they were just a bit shocked haha
We all ended up going out for some food, which I barely ate, and then coming back to the room because we couldn’t find anything else to do. M and I pretty much immediately went back on our bed because we were so tired and the others hung out and did random stuff the rest of the day and M and I never really left the bed again.
We spent the final night cuddling a lot and just holding each other very close. Then finally it was time to get up in the morning and get ready to leave. We then spent the next 10 hours back in the car reluctantly heading home again. We talked a lot and B and C helped us tell each other more about ourselves, like silly random stuff about what we like or what we like to do, because neither of us are good at talking about ourselves. Then we were getting pretty close to home and all of a sudden she just hands me her phone and is like, “here put your number in.”
Since then we’ve hung out several times and I just really like her. She’s so cute and I can’t help but smile every time I look at her or even think about her and I love kissing and hugging her and every time I’m not with her I wish I was (like right now ugh) so I don’t know where this is going to go but I know I’m so happy that it’s happening and that I ever said anything. Things are going to be a little weird between us and my brother but it’ll be okay eventually, he just needs time to get used to it and at this point all I care about is me and M being happy.. if my brother can’t be happy for us then that’s his problem, not ours.
I kissed a girl and I liked it :)
you never finished telling us about your amazing weekend :[
haha oh my gosh.. I pretty much finished writing it last night but couldn’t decide if I wanted to post it or not and I figured no one really cared so I didn’t post it.. But I guess I can do that now since you asked haha :)